I was bored.
First and foremost, it bored me. I was grateful for the event invites, the exclusive opportunities, the people I had met. But after a while, doing the same thing felt like ground hog day.... and after a while I was like is this it? I wasn't growing as a content creator to be honest. Even though I diversified my niche, even though I started YouTube. Blogging had boomed, and as a result the raw feeling if creating for creators sake was lost. Most of us (including myself at times) were more focused on numbers, or content that we knew would get views.
Now I'm no Debbie Downer. I know how business works and I know you got to change things up to be the best. I'm a marketer (in my day job) so I am so aware of how blogging is a strong word of mouth marketing tool. But I just think most bloggers we're taking it too seriously. It got to the point where I'd be hanging out with some of my blogger friends and all we'd talk about is blogging. I was tired of it, and realised I was in a blogger bubble. At the age of 26, and as a woman who always had other hobbies/activities outside of blogging, this no longer fed my soul. So I took the longest break (3 months), I've ever done and lived my life.
I got busy.
I think I've mentioned my age a few times. The reason I did this, was to highlight the priorities my life has now versus when I started blogging, I was a 20 year old Uni student, with a lot of time on my hands. To now , a 26 year old with 3 jobs. I have a freelance social and Content start up (FBL Bloggers), Monday-Friday I head up social media and digital content for a global travel tech company. Plus this site is a job. Between that and having a super active social life. LWIG was something to put on the back burner whilst I lived life and focused on the important changes in my life.
I wanted to more than a blogger.
Jess the blogger has been my identity for 6 years. But I'm more than that. I'm a person, I'm a daughter, a sister, your best friend and I have other interests. Which shocked people, weirdly. I love dance and music. But I'll always be a creative in some way.
So what now?
Obviously, I couldn't bring myself to quit. But I brought myself to take a break, and focus on life. I did not feel guilty, and I couldn't be bothered to think about blogging metrics. The main reason, I didn't quit is because I remembered why I started my blog. My blog saved me, in a number of ways; it was the catalyst which allowed me to be where I am now in my career. It also helped me be more open with my feelings, my interests and helped develop who I am today.
You see, my blog is no longer a place where I post my favourite outfits. It's a place where I express the essence of who I am. It's been my diary for the last 6 years.. and I'd like to have a look back on how I've developed to the person I am today. So how can I truly quit that?
Of course there will be a day, when I take a bow. But I hope this blog could be an archive of a young Jess, that I can share. All I can promise is to be me, I can't promise to post on the regs like I used to. But I can promise that when I do post... It'll be interesting and of quality. It'll be the real me and I hope that is why you all visit here, right?
Anyway? Have you quit blogging or thinking about it?
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